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shycoyotegirl

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another new years celebrating alone and not for lack of trying either. i miss feeling wanted and knowing that there was someone who trusted and needed me like i need someone. these days i wake up hoping for a miracle and falling asleep unloved and unneeded.

along with all that the store i was working at closed monday permanently and we didnt know till about 2 in the afternoon, talk about a great start for the new year again.
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my hip sucks and on top of that i may have to work sunday when i am trying to make time to finish making gifts for everyone, anyone have any ideas for places that may have a place that sells clear glass tiles?

my neck seems to have a permanent cramp in it, and my feet are sore as hell too. staying up late seems reasonable even if i do have to work tomorrow at 2.
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feeling extremely out of it,  and like there will be something bad happening this weekend.
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death?
of how you will die?
what could happen to those around you if you died?

my mind has been plagued with  thoughts of me killing myself. The way it happens is different every time; poison, cutting, hanging, drowning,etc.  i think of how much easier everyone else's lives would be without me in it. Everyone moves on, i've seen it happen when others have died, they get angry then sad and then they move on.  it helps that they all have someone they can lean on: a friend, a lover, a parent, a sibling.

i keep trying to figure what else to put up on here. things about whats been effecting me the most. things i didn't notice till i was asked about them recently. about how lonely, unwanted, and undesired i feel. But you know with the way things have been lately i recon no one will go out of their way to show me any love after this is posted because no one will notice one more dark message on the net.
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:iconpikafavplz:

it was so easy just to look at you,
alot easier when you didn't know i existed
but now you do know...
it's weird to look at you only to see you looking at me too,
blushing is my new reaction when your around.
right now it's so easy to just close my eyes and think of you
but i know i wont see you for a little more than a week and a half...

i have to deal with my family and my self till i see you again,
questions will come up that i don't want to know the answer to,
all because i don't know you well enough.

what's a girl to do when she's falling
and doesn't know if anyone will be there to catch her?
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